To our Brothers and Sisters in the Middle East and around the Planet. Sending my love xoxox
To our Brothers and Sisters in the Middle East and around the Planet. Sending my love xoxox
Some of my friends had a few uncomfortable experiences with this Lunar Eclipse as it brings up issues that need to be addressed. Insecurities and self doubts seemed to be common. I was strangely comforted by the Moon instead of been being distressed or disturbed by uncomfortable thoughts.
I have always been very connected to the moon and very comforted by it. For years I have made my mother laugh when I say things like ‘Look at the Moon’ over and over when we drive during the night time around the full moon. Whenever I arrive home and its night time I automatically look up and have a smile for the moon. I cant really explain the connection or the love I just accept it as a character trait.
I saw a message about the Lunar Eclipse and I thought I would tell a friend that was on skype. She asked what were my thoughts on what to expect. I was at first really taken back as I am used to reporting things to friends but I rarely give my personal opinion. I think that is something that has changed within me from my trip to Singapore. I am really trusting my own intuition and connecting with my own guides. So I closed my eyes and asked what should I do for the Lunar Eclipse.
I got the word Gratitude and the sense of making a list of all that I am grateful for. I thought what a LOVELY thing to do and I shared this idea with a few friends at meditation and they liked the idea as well.
When I got home from meditation I did some writing and reading so it was nearly 1am before I wrote my list. I was further guided to take out my crystals for recharging and I placed my list under the crystals all night (this was a personal decision). The thing that I thought was most important was acknowledging the beautiful energies of being Grateful.
Yes this Lunar Eclipse did bring up issues for people to work on and I am sure it will continue to do so for millions. However the act of being Grateful can really help people through tough times of self discovery and I feel compelled to share this with everyone. Its such a simple thing but I am sure that it never hurts to have a reminder.
One other interesting thing happened while outside at 1am in the morning. A possum or some other creature did this hideous growling at me. It was only 3 metres away in the compost pit and it sounded demonic, which is kind of ironic because alot of Australia’s cutest animals sound awful when upset. I turned around and instead of being afraid I apologised to it like it was a human. It would answer each of my words with this guttural yowl/hiss and in the end I told it “I love you” and it stopped. It didnt make another sound and I didnt hear it scurry away so it might have watched me. I turned back and did my moon meditation with my eyes shut and I never felt any fear. To me this is completely awesome and a personal milestone. There has been a few times when I have been out side during a full moon and I hear something that makes me hyper aware and not in a meditative state because of some sense of foreboding or fear. Its not like I ever expected to get attacked by the possum or other things in the past but still something about being outside in the night pricked some kind of social conditioned fear that I think I have broken now. I smile each time I think of the animal stopping after I told it I loved it…we are one.
Moon Blessings to you all xoxox
I dont even know where to start. There is so much to discuss and some of it is personal so it will not be publicly talked about while other parts I feel can be. So this doesnt turn into a super post I will probably break it up into sections to talk about. First the touristy stuff. After we did the museum and night safari we went to Sentosa Island for 3 nights. It was really amazing the resort we stayed in was Siloso Beach Resort and it was like staying in a giant tree house. I absolutely loved it.
While there we did a lot of relaxing and the Luge Ride. That was awesome and I really remembered how fun it is to do stuff like that, I dont have a fear of speed so I pretty much went at maximum speed with little to no breaking. So the Luge helped me to reconnect with the silly fun part of myself that just has pure fun by letting go. I think I need to do more of this, silly little things that are not my usual style lately. This year has been so intense that I have forgotten to be pure laughter at something silly. I often feel joy, happiness and gratitude but I have not done things that make you laugh for the sheer absurdity of it.
Chinatown – we bought lots of cheap gifts for souvenirs. I had only carry on luggage so I needed to find small things that were super light as my carry on was already heavy. What I did was fill a shoulder tote bag with everything heavy and basically just bought light things like scarves, shirts etc. After our shopping we did some temples – we visited this gorgeous Hindu Temple just near chinatown and we went in, it was amazing. The energies of the place was very serene and calm. The people that visited were very respectful and loving towards their deities and I kind of zoned out. I really felt a soul deep peace for visiting there.
Quan Yin Temple was next. Here I was more uncomfortable, Quan Yin is the Goddess of Mercy and I think there was alot of people there who were desperate. I could pick up on that desperation and it was saddening. Where the Hindu temple was relaxing this one was slightly jarring. I cannot doubt that it was powerful though, at times I felt like people were brushing up against me and when I turned there was no one there. I also felt like something crawl along my shirt but nothing was there. While I had my eyes shut in prayer I experienced something which I will keep to myself but I know it was the reason why I went there. I loved both the Temples and I wish we went into more of them 🙂
Lastly – Universal Studios.
This is not my normal thing to go and do because I find them pretty boring. I had zero intention of going but I woke up on our last morning and my intuition told me I had to go. I admit to grumbling at myself and had to meditate to see if I had to go, my intuition said a firm Yes. So off we went. I had to go for two reasons, one I had to support a friend when they got ill and second I want to find out more about this snake I saw on the side of a box in the Egyptian section.
I would love to know if this is familiar to anyone else?
I will blog tomorrow about my experiences at the workshop.
Day 14 of Mt Pinatubo essence was all about surviving my trip on the aeroplane. The flight went well but it was long and it really started to drag towards the end. I am very happy that I got here and that I have met up with Ahana LaRa.
I have found the energies of Singapore very dense. As soon as I arrived I started feeling really mellow and internal. My friends kept asking me if I was okay and I was always surprised that they were asking because I felt fine. It made me realise that even though I felt fine the energy of the place was making me withdrawn within myself so that I could process and become comfortable.
I still have moments of this – where I become very internal. However I think I am becoming more comfortable here. We did a few touristy things yesterday and I really enjoyed myself.
The Museum we visited was fascinating and I love going to places like that. I find that history sooths my soul. I know that might sound a bit strange but I just love respecting the past.
We then went to the Zoo for a night safari. Which was both amazing but sad at the same time. There was a few animals that were clearly sad and depressed so I had a few moments of real heaviness in my chest, however I was also aware at the same time that conservation is vital.
Last night my meditation was very beautiful, I think having my sacred space set up for my meditation makes all the difference. I have alot more cleaning to do in the rest of the house but that particular part is perfect. I called to archangel Michael and I felt his presence, it was like the energy in the room got stronger. I had a crystal in each hand and they started throbbing, I also called upon Isis but I didnt really feel like the energy of the room got bigger. I still think she answered though. I have felt an ‘answer’ like a deep certainty when I have called upon Michael in the past, but this was he first time I felt the energy actually rise in the room. When I think of who I was 8 months ago I am humbled, I was a social lemming and now look at my life. If I can do this, anyone can 🙂
Today I had a moment of feeling really exhausted that lasted from about 11am – 1pm. After that I got better but I only did a tiny bit of cleaning when I should have done alot more. I am not tired so I might do a few more minute before having a shower, its very muggy here so I dont know if the thunderstorm that has been in the distance might actually turn into something bigger. I have noticed this last week that I dont get tired, its 1.20am and I am still fine.
I think that might just be because of the energies of the moment. I have noticed a few people experiencing the same sleeplessness.
I had a lovely conversation with Ahana LaRa Losita. I have mentioned her in past blog posts but once again I feel compelled to say that she is amazing. Its like she is a mirror for my higherself to talk to and she reflects back things that I need to know. She told me some things today that were VITAL for me to hear.
I told her how I have been feeling very different since my sickness and she told me that I had been upgraded and that my mind is trying to recreate a prior experience. So that explains why I feel a bit of distance and like something is wrong when I know there is nothing wrong, Im feeling great. My mind wants to link how I am now to the past but I am different to who I was a few weeks ago.
I have so much to do today I best get going.
Although I have not really did much today I still feel really happy. It was very very hot here today and it was that sapping heat that really makes a person exhausted. Because of this I decided not to go shopping/visiting friends till the afternoon.
Two things happened today that I feel is worth talking about:
* Disappearing Acts
I was washing my hair and I hung the conditioner up by its nozzle of the washer rack. As I did so I remember thinking, thats going to fall down. But I kind of did a mental shrug and then continued to wash my hair (with eyes shut). When it came time to condition my hair I reached for the conditioner and it was gone. Confused I looked on the ground but I hadnt heard it bang on the floor…there was nothing. Turning around I saw the condition on the outside of the shower on the side of the bath. Now I am not claiming some helpful fairy sprite helped me out. I know its far more likely that I moved it but what is kind of freaky is that I have zero and I mean ZERO recollection of picking it up, opening the door, putting it outside & closing the door again.
So I have these disappearing acts lately where I must do things but are unaware of them. Its weird because I knew that if I left the shampoo hanging it would have fallen but I shrugged and left it there initially. It has happened more then once, thing missing turn up without me stressing over them but the way I looked in the most random places is interesting.
* New Me
Today for the first time I had a real moment of feeling NEW. I know that sounds strange but I have spent nearly two weeks isolated away from all my friends because of my sickness. But the sickness itself was very interesting as I have talked about, it was a massive clearing out – and while I still have a few ear problems I am 90% healed.
So when I met my friends and talked to them – I felt new. I felt lighter and happier and full of energy and excitement. It was a lovely sensation and I am sure I will continue to feel this way.
Life is awesome.
Today I have felt completely energised. In the past I am one of those people that hates cleaning. I put it off for months (or years) – I am talking massive cleaning with furniture being moved, stuff thrown away and things found that were lost for ages.
In the past when I do these massive cleans it take days, there is a lot of self guilt (how could I let myself get this way) oh and dont forget my favourite (how can I keep repeating this mistake). Well today was such an eye opener for me, I started out like normal and did a bit of cleaning.
However this time there was no real negativity. The good old negative ego was silent and things just seemed so easy. I said that I was only going to do a bit, have lunch then do an hour or so more cleaning and call it quits for the day. However the cleaning was so easy that I did epic amounts. I moved every single bit of furniture that needed doing (5 pieces moved around) but I didnt stop there, I threw out stuff and miraculously found the two things I need to take to Singapore (there was no angst I just stumbled across them hahaha). To make things even funnier I scrubbed the window, vaccumed, dusted, washed my hair and fixed a necklace.
In the past I would have never done half what I did today because I would talk myself out of it (or my ego would). I would complain about aches and pains and make up 20 different excuses to stop. I can honestly say I feel fantastic and I have zero aches and pains and I could probably keep going but I know I need sleep so that I can finish it tomorrow.
That most exciting thing – I have created my meditation alter. I have been wanting to create a sacred space for MONTHS but have been procrastinating and then today it just all worked.
I think this new found attitude is a number of things. I think the essences have helped, I think the solar eclipse has helped and we are all in a place where we can finish our projects. Lastly I think it was just the fact I went with the flow, I didnt interlectualise it and I never let negative thoughts come into it. What a truly awesome day.
I am off to meditate in front of my crystals and candles. Tomorrow is alot more work but the hard parts are done.
Today was surprisingly delightful. I have to admit that I was expecting to have alot of energetic interference, I was expecting to have moments of tiredness or maybe light headedness. Instead I felt almost serene most of the day and a buzz of energy at other times. I got an assignment finished and also did a few other things on the computer that needed doing.
Actually looking back I did go to sleep.
It took me forever to get to sleep last night it would have been a bit after 2am. So I set my alarm for 7.28am so I could get up and meditate for the Eclipse. (My previous blog post talks about that Meditation) after my meditation I went back to bed and I slept for ages, I don’t think I got up till 10.30 ish. This is unusual for me so I guess I did get sleepy from the energy
Something I have been thinking about is what my dear friend said: